Paityn

Three years ago yesterday was by far the greatest day of my life!!! After 18 very long hours I was able to hold my beautiful and amazing little girl Paityn for the first time!!! I cant even begin to expain how wonderful and amazing that moment was for me. She has been by far the greatest blessing that my life has ever been givin. I would just like Paityn to know that I love her more than anything in this entire world and would do anything for her!!!!! You deserve so far much better than anything that I can give you at this moment but I am working to make things better for us and for you... So for now me loving you like crazy and smothering you with kisses and hugs will have to do until I am done with school!!! You are such an amzing, smart, sweet and beautiful little girl paityn and you mean the world to me!!! Thank you so much for picking to come me and our family baby girl!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!

decisions....

Ok well to start things off, Yes Jake and I have broken up and are taking time to try to figure things out. Taking a step back and really looking at what our relationship was like and if it would be worth trying to fix and start over. Its been rough and I have felt like an emotional wreck the last few weeks. But its going to be for the best either way, or at least that is what I constantly have to keep telling myself. Jake was and is stillmy best friend and one of the sweetest guys that I have ever met. We just not be right for each other like we thought and it breaks my heart to have to admit that. He has been there basically every day for the last 8 months and has been so amazing to not only me but to my beautiful and amazing daughter!! More than anything I would like to thank Jake for teaching me alot about myself and showing me how much i can really handle and take in. No matter what happens you will always have a love in my life that no one will be able to replace!!! Im trying to stay positive and optimistic but it can get rough sometimes when I am alone, Since there is no need for me to be strong when I am alone right? Well wish me luck all as I try to figure my life out!!!