Soooo close!!!!

Oh my gosh, it seems like it will be forever to get to October 9th, but then in the next instance it seems like it is coming to fast and I cant breathe!! I have felt so overwhelmed the last week or so. I am so excited and I cant wait to be married to Douglas! But I am so nervous that I will suck at being a wife and will let him and Paityn down in some way. We have 18 more days until its official and I must say that I will be so very happy when the day is here and I will no longer have to talk about it or answer questions.. Paityn and I went out to Wendover last week for a week just to see where we were going to be living and meet Dougs friends out there. It wasn't quite as bad as I thought it would be after the initial shock wore off, I must admit though that I was bored out of my mind for the first couple days and cried as well, hopefully once I have all of my books and computer out there I wont be as bored and will be able to keep myself busy. Well thats all for now I will try to get on again before the wedding..